“I wanna love you,
But something’s pulling me away from you
Jesus is my virtue,
Judas is the demon I cling to
I cling to”
- From Judas by Lady Gaga
On this Maundy Thursday the whole thing takes a twist as Judas, loved in the washing of his feet and shown the full extent of Jesus love in the Last Supper sneaks away to do his worst. The entry to Jerusalem will seem a long way off over these next 36 hours or so. Judas will set Jesus death on motion with a kiss.
The betrayer. Why? Did Judas have his own agenda for Jesus? Did it not fit in with the way that Jesus was moving? Was he trying to call Jesus bluff and stir him into a different way? Jesus was his virtue but was the demon he clung to that of his own selfish Kingdom moulded in his own imagining.
Lady Gaga has said about this song:
“Someone once said to me, 'If you have no shadows then you're not standing in the light.' So the song is about washing the feet of both good and evil and understanding and forgiving the demons from your past in order to move into the greatness of your future.”
“I sing about what a holy fool I am, and that although moments in my life are so cruel and relationships can be so cruel I’m still in love with Judas. I still go back again to those evil things,"
"I keep going back and forth between the darkness and the light in order to understand who I am.”
And what about me? What is my agenda that I want to manipulate Jesus into fulfilling; a political one; an economic one, a theological one? Do I still cling to my thoughts and ambitions instead of the revolutionary upside down ones of Jesus that has us picking up crosses and not crowns?